I woke up this morning with the Word of God on my mind, in my heart and being spoken from my lips. Somewhere mid day I felt feelings bubbling up inside that I knew were coming but I wasn’t ready to give in to them. I wasn’t ready to express them. All of a sudden as I am standing doing dishes I felt like the Holy Spirit spoke to me and said “Go ahead. Let it out. I’m right here.” So I did. I had a little screaming, crying, “what the ____ is going on” moment. My feelings didn’t need to be suppressed. I didn’t need to suck it up and not say how scared I am. I needed to deal with it. Once I did I no longer had any anxiousness and a peace came over me.

With so much prayer and encouragement around me I didn’t feel like I wanted anyone to see how scared I am. I wanted to be the best positive example of how to trust God. But here’s the truth; I can have those feelings and still trust God. I needed to tell God (even though He knows) how I was feeling. I wanted to run to my Father and say HELP I’m freaked out a little. Isn’t that what He wants?

Matthew 11:28 says “Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest.”

Jeremiah 31:25 says “I will refresh the weary and the faint.”

Isaiah 40:29 says “He gives strength to the weary and increases the power to the weak.”

Thank you Father for letting me just be real. For allowing me to be open and honest about what I am feeling day by day and sometimes hour by hour. Thank you for teaching me to lean on you and not my own understanding.

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