I’m not ashamed to admit that I can be a bit of a control freak. Not only a control freak but as my daughter affectionately refers to me as a fixer. I can’t think of an area of my life where at one time or another I was frustrated because what I was trying to do wasn’t fixing the situation. I was totally out of control. I remember one time in particular where something was going on with one of the children and I was working so hard to fix the situation. To take control. I was driving down the road and that sweet voice whispered “are you done trying to take care of this or would you like Me too?” Ouch. Have you even been so gently put in your place by God? I think about Rebekah and what a strong woman she was for her time but she was also a fixer. Rebekah sometimes thought God needed her help. She favored Jacob over Esau and helped Jacob deceive Isaac. Her trickery led to a split between the brothers that caused years of turmoil.

Right now there are so many facets to this nonsense going on in my body that I don’t even know where to begin to fix it. From my husband’s travel schedule, to thinking about telling my mom what is going on, getting the house in order, thinking about the holidays, thinking about Mallie….it is a lot to control and so many little details to take control over.

The good news is, I don’t have to think about how to take care of anything! Growing in my faith has taught me to know that God is still on the throne, He isn’t surprised by all that is going on and He has a plan. The key is to listen. Take time to be still. Get in tune with the Holy Spirit and hear what He has to say!

Deuteronomy 32:1-2 Give ear, O heavens, and I will speak, and let the earth hear the words of my mouth. May my teaching drop as the rain, my speech distill as the dew, like gentle rain upon the tender grass, and like showers upon the herb.

Psalm 37:7a Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for him