This is a post I wrote November 14, 2013 about forgiveness. I felt it was worth sharing on my blog because of the transparency.

I have held a grudge with a person for 301 days. Today is the day I CHOOSE to forgive and let go. How could I let the words of a person cut me so deeply that I have spent this long picking at the scab. How could I let the lies eat away at me to the point of depression, feelings of failure and wanting to just crawl in a hole and die. It may come as a surprise to hear me say this but it’s true. I am sharing this publicly because I believe FB needs to be an honest platform, not just rainbows, butterflies and ‘look how perfect everything is”. Does it make me a little vulnerable? Maybe, but if you read my posts I want you to really know me.
I had a conversation with someone that I thought was a friend only to have them tear me to shreds with their words. Not only to me but publicly. It has festered in me for yes….301 days. I lived the saying “Unforgiveness is like drinking the poison hoping the other person dies.”
The virtual world of FB and Twitter keeps people in your life even when you don’t want them to be. Even if you unfriend or don’t follow them, they are still a connection to you through others. This has led to my continued build up of hatred, anger, sadness and depression. Today is the day I CHOOSE to forgive. If I want God to “forgive me of my trespasses” then I need to “forgive those that have trespassed against me.”
I pretended for a long time that it really didn’t bother me, that I could let it go but here I am 301 days later and it’s there in my thoughts every waking hour. Today I CHOOSE to forgive. If there is someone you need to forgive even if they never apologized to you, say this pray today:
God, I release this person of the hurt they caused me. Father I pray that you will forgive me for letting this get in the way of all you have planned for me. I repent of my sin. Father, thank you for casting my sin into the sea of forgetfulness and I pray that you will help me to do the same with this wrong that had been done against me. Father bless this person in every area of their life. Soften their heart Lord to know that their words are powerful for both good and bad.”
Today I am thankful that I serve a God who knows me so well. Who loves me unconditionally and gently works with me to learn lessons only He can teach. I share this with all of you in hopes that it gives you an opportunity to forgive someone that has hurt you. During this season of Thanksgiving, l am thankful for a God that loves me so much that He gave His only Son. That he who believes in Him will have eternal life. God loves you and so do I.

Great Read by Joyce Meyer: http://bit.ly/1xTB1zx